Well a lot has happened since my last posting.  One, was my father's passing, the other was my wife's pregnancy.  Well let's start with my dad.  Always be critical about the ones you love.  Always make sure you start hiding and throwing stuff they hide from you, especially what the hide and ingest.  If the food turns hairy and green, throw it away!  If it expires six months pass the due date throw it away...! Dad ate something old and his body was not able to flush it away,  being a picky eater, his body did not contain fat or food storage to back up to if he was recovering.  his immune system was already compromised and he could not recover from that.  Hours later, we all said goodbye.

From grief to happiness..

At this time, we discovered that we are going to be parents!  We are 22 weeks into the pregnancy.  Winnie's doing fine.  I'm just plain anxious.  This past week, I helped my in-laws moved from their rented home to their newly bought home in Queens.  I am still suffering from ahces and pain...

I did not make my wife appreciative today.  I did not get her a cup of coffee.  This is in fact lying. It is because I went back up and never came back.  Today is another day.  Today was a snow day, with it, we all shovelled ourselves out.  Shovelled the driveway, shovelled the car, the part of the driveway that our car can come out.  It was aches and pain.  But I was mentally distracted, distracted over a certification exam.  When I offered a cup of coffee to my wife, she said yes, but when I did not come back, I was mentally distracted.  Her birthday is tomorrow, so I hope I do not mess it up too...

Yes I did, but was it intentional?  I do know.  But after the fight tonight, no one win or lose.  But we both feel depressed.  Why did I lie?  Because I made myself good but in the end I made myself bad.  I lied that I did not go on Black Friday for shopping, instead, I made every excuse  not to go. I do not know why, I should have told her that I didn't want to go and because of the time it took to find things, get on line and get into the car to my next appointment.  After this fight, I feel worse, because I was not truthful to my mate.  Do I feel good, I do not know, just that there are a lot of maybe's and if's today, I could not have done so.  She also asked why I came home after my last computer job instead of getting a haircut?  Well, I had the little car and I drove it, secondly, I was hungry and wanted a bite to eat.  Well this is my blog...    I feel terrible tonight...